Venus in Retrograde (off day)

This guy next to me?

I want to fill

him

with gin

so he might

let me in

somewhat.

Those caught

glimpses 

of

fraught

thought

enthrall and frustrate

but ultimately

leave me

alone.

So I drink 

and drink 

and wait (like a fool)

When he smiles

I'm relieved

because

I feel like

he's returned

from

that private place

I have no right

to infiltrate.